Sentimientos

When I first got the e-mail saying I was a finalist I freaked out. I instantly called my mom and my dad and then told every living being that was online on facebook. I instagrammed a screenshot of the letter and posted it on facebook and twitter, too. I also excitedly called Mitchell to check his e-mail! (He got it too! More on that later.)

I felt like I wasn't really expecting for the worst. Then I had to humble myself and be thankful that I am given such a great opportunity to spend a year in a country basically free. Things like this don't happen to me. This scholarship is worth upwards of $10K and that's just crazy to me. Apparently, the application committees and interviewers had enough faith in me to grant me the scholarship.

There are so many people I should be thanking for this scholarship. Without that first call from Donna, I would not have remembered that I even opened the CBYX application. Without the hopefuls facebook group, my questions would not have been answered and I wouldn't have had some of the really great tips that they gave. Without my teachers who wrote letters or rec for me without even really knowing me, I would not have finished the initial application. Last but certainly not the least, without my parents giving me the chance and helping me through out the process I would have never finished.

Obviously, I'm very thankful to God for giving me such a great opportunity and I feel like this is His way of showing me at least a little bit of His plan for me.

In the first few hours of finding out all I felt was excitement. But I also felt sad because the on-site orientation is the same weekend as my first and last prom meaning I'll never be able to attend prom. I'm not really the type of person to get excited or even go to dances it still feels sad that I'll be missing the last high school milestone that I have left. Whatever, I'm going to Germany! haha.

Right now I feel like there's so many emotions going on in my head. It feels really trippy to know that I'm going to have to finish these last two and a half months of school knowing, in the back of my mind, that I'm going to be leaving for a year in August. It's going to be so weird leaving right before the end of my Oxford Academy career and then coming back with it over and with all my friends off to college.

But I'm glad I'm not doing this all alone. Mitchell applied with me and shared the struggles of long waiting periods, too. It's such a blessing that I'll have a friend with me to go through the same things. I hope we get placed close to each other so we can just take a bus or a train to hang out on weekends or take daytrips places. That would be so cool!

On top of all that, I have to manage getting good grades at school (I'm not doing too hot at the moment) and also take care of graduating early and getting all my college apps set up before I leave. I also have to make sure that I get my passport before departing because that would suck major balls if I didn't have my passport on time. I also started medication like right after I turned in my secondary app saying I don't take any medication so I have to tell FLAG about that... Whatever, I'll figure all that out later on.

Anyways, my mom was the one who told all my family in Europe that I'd be spending the next school year in Germany. I'm so thankful that I have family there because they've offered to buy my winter clothes and other heavy items for me which will be awesome. I can pack more things! Early August is going to be hectic because my aunts from France are coming with their families on the 5th and then I leave on the 11th. I'll only have a few days with them before I leave but I hope I get to spend some of Christmas or Easter break with them next year.

This is a really long post but honestly this stuff goes through my mind on a loop. It's so hard to concentrate and get back into school mode knowing that I have all of this and more to think about.